Slow but Steady

Ok, so I'm not very good at this blog thing. I mean I don't keep up with it, but something is better than nothing right!!

I was reading a friend from high schools blog this am "real girls don't poop" and she talks about how we are all different people than we were back in the day. Now we have a better idea of whats real verses not, and how we all get pulled into the cycle of what people throw at us.

Her blog, makes me realize that while I have the same qualities of the dorky high school girl I once was, I am no longer the same girl. Not physically and definitely not mentally. That the long battles of what I thought were the worst/hardest decisions that I made (separating myself from all things (people) Manchester) and cutting my losses, gave me the opportunity to grown and make my way back to the people that I want to connect with. You have to understand the community I hail from, the friends I had in high school, were the friends I went to nursery school with, the friends I went to CCD with, there were no people from the outside world. I knew only what I saw everyday, which limits ones grasp of reality.

My retraction from the "cult" of Manchester, gave me the opportunity, power, and balls to take on myself. I dropped a ton of weight, I did things that wouldn't have worked in the old mold of myself. Hell I moved across the country.

I guess what I realized out of A's blog, (which is her self help back to her younger self) is that if I knew then what I know now, would I still be the same person I am today. Would I have taken the chances, made the friends, enjoyed the bumps along the way. I can't say that I would be. I think that lefts, when I should have gone right, and the holding on dear for life, are what makes us what we are. It makes us secure in ourselves, it makes us able to break the mold and figure out how we can be the best us!

Now I'm off to spinning, I have a closet of clothes that are missing me at the moment!